FALLEN

i need to go for a brain therapy because apparently i'm not as strong-willed as i used to be anymore. i hope thats the case because my next alternative answer to the way things are going is because i dont actually want everything to be the way i said i want it to be.

that will stink up my plan terribly.

what goes around comes around. why does it have to involve me then. i wish i didnt care.

i need my dosage of happy pill now.

and seriously i hope nobody understood the gibberish. i hope i wont too when i look back in 5 years.

not worth it.

MAKING HISTORY

the beef noodles near my place is good. haha. everyone should go try it (only applicable when i'm not going there on that day). i dislike long queues and big crowds.

anyway, hello Bob! (:

sometimes i think being nice is a crime because some are just not worth the time and effort.

read my mind like a book now please!

I MISS YOU.

Hello there
The angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim
Of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally
If we want
Where you can always find me
And we'll have halloween on christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends

I miss you
(I miss you)

Where are you?
And I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep
I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This 6 string's darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
The webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
And hear your voice of treason
Will you come home
And stop this pain tonight?
Stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me
You're already the voice inside my head
(I miss you)
You're already the voice inside my head
(I miss you)


i managed to chanced upon this song in my ipod. you know, as seasons change and taste fickles, this one just got lost amongst the other greatest greats.

i just feel like remembering it more.

SO TELL ME.

i have either made the best decision that i could have ever made with regards to the situation or just turned suicidal and killed myself.

driving today was scary. i went off the lane and almost knocked into a taxi. if frankie didnt step on the brakes and turn the wheel... my mind isnt right. i feel lethargic.

and hungry too.

must be the weather i reckon. freaking hot lah. icecream by the dozen please!

if only i could be read like a book (sometimes), how nice would it be.

more joyrides please! (:

PROMISE

What would you say if I asked you not to go
To forget everyone, forget everything and start over with me
Would you take my hand and never let me go
promise me you'll never let me go

And now the stars aren't out tonight
but neither are we to look up at them
why does hello feel like goodbye
These memories can't replace
These wishes I wish and dreams I chase
Take this broken heart and make it right

I feel like I've lost everything when your gone
Left remembering what its like
To have you here with me
I thought you should know
Your not making this easy


gone are the days when one cant post a song without it bearing any significant, underlying pun.

i'm gonna bring those days back.

SO BEAUTIFUL

i wanted to upload photos, but then i got lazy. ha ha.

monday was the first day that i started to feel how crap felt like again. i went back to work. i kept telling myself its ending soon but soon never looked so far before. travelling is so much of a hassle! i hafta blend in with the rush hour crowd and sit the stuffy and cramped bus everyday to leave! ALONE somemore. everyone there stays in the east. tsk!

i can choose to take my aunt's car but she leaves LATE all the time! so instead of knocking off at 530, i'll knock off after 7pm.

boring okay. really very very ugh.

and then it becomes a routine and instead of being happy when 530 strikes, i feel so lethargic because i hafta go take the bus.

so besides all that (and the nonsense politics in loyang), i'm actually doing good.

i'm gonna pray that one of my friends will either be posted somewhere near where i'm at to work or that everyday, there'll be some kind fella who is in the vicinity. as pathetic as it sounds, i think i might need a go-home-together friend.

haha.

FOR THE 9TH

i'm back from France. it was awesome. i am kinda missing it now. but its good to use the usual faces, the people i missed. but now that i've seen them, i'm kinda missing the new people i met over there. i miss didi & rosemary and the company of billy. will upload the pictures when i have all of them and if time permits. its kinda tedious and i'm very lazy. haha. i wanna go back soon. 5yrs! i cant wait to strike lottery.

it was good while it lasted. a bientot!

(: much missed all. and to qw, thanks for the countdown lah!